Sunday, November 7, 2010

7/28/03

It’s sad how Jehoram did not humble himself before the Lord after receiving the Word of the Lord from Elijah. Also that he died to no one’s regret. Sad man – sad life…Then his wife! Uck! How and why in the world did he marry Athaliah! Anyhow she was a rotten women who after her son was dead did not look after her sons children/her grandchildren but killed all of them she found….then later she was shown to be the traitor and died – and according with the prophesy of Ahab’s relatives, her blood too was trod on by the horses.

It seems to me that Paul is saying here that God has come to us because of the unbelief of the Jews…but is it not so, as the promise of a savior was to the descendants of Adam –which includes all mankind?… Or is there also a number of those who will be accepted – through faith - into the special covenant that was given to the Israelites..? I’m not exactly sure what he’s getting at – but I do agree with the statements made at the last of the reading:

RO 11:33 Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable his judgments,
and his paths beyond tracing out!

RO 11:34 "Who has known the mind of the Lord?
Or who has been his counselor?"

RO 11:35 "Who has ever given to God,
that God should repay him?"

RO 11:36 For from him and through him and to him are all things.
To him be the glory forever! Amen.

God is good and he knows…so we must trust him and trust that we shall understand all that we need to when it is the right time – and he knows that right time!
Psalm: Jesus speaks to predict his death and suffering for our salvation and freedom…
Interesting how God uses people, to say what he wants to be said…
Proverbs: Children are blessed by their parents’ lives and gain something by the way they live their lives.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

My Song

Album:
Once Upon A Shattered Life
by:Seventh Day Slumber

Song:
Caroline

Where do I begin?
There’s so much I want to say to make it easier
Tomorrow’s on it’s way
Do you believe I want to take your painful memories?
I know you want to run away
I know that you can’t see tomorrow

Chorus:
Caroline, let me wipe away your tears and give you life,
Make you feel beautiful again
Caroline, don’t throw it all away
I’m here tonight to take away your pain.

Yesterday is gone and everything that made you cry has fallen to the ground
I’m here to bring you home, I will always take you back
You haven’t let me down
I know you want to run away
I know that you can’t see tomorrow

(Chorus)

And when you’re feeling al alone and you can’t go on,
Remember I am here
And when you think you’ve gone too far,
I‘ll meet you where you are
My arms are open wide

found in my journal...

After all a daughter doesn’t fear her loving father when the bad times come – she turns to him for help!

Desperate to please in order to be loved –mentality

I understood now why God was at peace with me –even though so often I was not at peace with myself or my circumstances. Nothing I could do could ever change God’s attitude toward me.

This was all part of my desire to produce something more that would somehow give me that place of secure standing with God and people and fulfill my deepest longings as a person and a woman.

Grace always surprises me by the wonder of God’s infinite compassion, but his infinite compassion means little if I do not have an infinite need.

The language of an orphan is complaining, gossiping, boasting, defending, and excuse making –
The language of sons y daughters is giving God the glory – boasting in the work of Christ and sharing this good news with others.

I see myself more as a victim than a sinner –

I saw the gospel primarily related to becoming a Christian –

He power that the gospel has for me now is that I know there is a safe place where I can leave the load of guilt and sin. I can’t lose, because I have One who intercedes in heaven for me.

The orphan will take a difficult, hopeless path; the Daughter will walk the way of grace, freedom, and hope.

God has a story of Grace for me…

Maries Song:Gal 1:5

Allow the spirit to plant (the story) in your heart – and you will hear it…

It is in the hearing that we learn of Love that can cast away/out our fears…

And when we obey that voice of Love we allow God’s grace to live and to act through us. God’s life in us – this is true freedom.

I am an empty page –
Full of blankness and desolation –
My slate wiped - erased by sin –
now empty and undeserving –
like the two broken stones of the covenant –
so I am broken – alone in the dust
and the world it tells me I am unfixable –
and that I should hide my broken-ness
and act like I am whole…
than this man comes..
and cuts his hands on all my sharp edges –
and he fixes me…
and he picks up his blood
and begins to write a future and a hope
for me….
Just and only for me…

Even if I try to write my own future
it will only be a failure
and disaster spelled
in my own waste…

and so I must surrender
to the pain
for that which I will gain
and let the author of
all time enter into my darkness
into my tomb and listen
to the voice calling me fourth
out of the darkness
and though I shall come shroud in death
so shall I be raised and live
and so shall my future
unfold into eternity

He calls me his voice strained in pain
For this author had written a story –
And it had been washed away
In my own sin
Now he straightens the crumpled edges
Of his ruined novel and
Begins to write anew
Hope within his eyes….

I hear you Lord –
Speak for your servant is listening
Teach me and guild me
Restore to me the years
That the locusts have eaten
..Look upon me a sinner
and have mercy
though I do not deserve it…

I call back to the voice
my heart longs to hear
and I rise and come out of the tomb
into His glorious light….



For in this righteousness there is no law, and where there is no law there can be no transgression – no sin.
Seeing then that sin hath here no place there can be no anguish of conscience , no fear, no heaviness. –1John 5:18 – He that is born of God cannot sin…

If there is any fear or grief of conscience it is a token that this righteousness is withdrawn that grace is hidden that Christ is darkened and out of sight…
Although I am a sinner by the law and under condemnation of the law, it is my flesh that is so and not my spiritual being…
Jesus hath abolished the law , sin, death, and hath trodden under his feet all evils, led them captive,and triumphed over them in himself Col 2:15….

Meditate on the Word – and pray - that IN TIME OF TEMPTATION you may be able to instruct, y comfort both your own conscience and others, and to bring them from the law to grace, form active and working righteousness, to passive and received righteousness and to conclude “from Moses to Christ.”

Law ought to have dominion only over the flash – and if it tries to creep into the conscious and there seek to rein - make the true division swiftly, saying: O Law thou wouldest creep into the kingdom of my conscience and there reprove it of sin and take from me the joy of my heart. The joy of which I have in faith through Christ – and you wish to drive me to desperation that I may be without hope, and utterly perish. Keep within thy bounds, and exercise thy power upon the flash: for I am baptized, and by the gospel am called to the partaking of righteousness and everlasting life.”

There is the active righteousness which the flesh must follow – along with the deeds – but they will come to nothing without the watering from above –and this watering will not come unless you have the passive righteousness of the spirit and the faith with brings fruit in the Spiritual realm wherewith the worldly deeds in the worlds realm are then watered with life from your spiritual faith in the heavenly realm…--since in the spiritual realm there is no law there doesn’t have to be any saving deeds or any active righteousness in the spiritual man or realm….it just doesn’t exist…”For Christ is the end of the law..” Rom 10:4 – who being come, Moses ceaseth with his law, circumcision, the sacrifices, the Sabbaths, yea, and all the prophets.

Both the active and passive righteousness’ are necessary but must be kept within there bounds—them both being separated one from the other.. as in two worlds – two realms, the righteousness of the law is earthly and has to do with earthly things – . But as the earth bringeth not forth fruit except it be watered first from above; even so by the righteousness of the law, in doing many things we do nothing, and in fulfilling the law we fulfill it not, except first we are made righteous by the Christian righteousness, which appertaineth nothing to the righteousness of the law, or to the earthly and active righteousness. But this righteousness is heavenly, which we have not of ourselves, but receive it from heaven; we work not for it, but by grace it is wrought in us, and is apprehended by faith; whereby we mount up above all laws and all works. So that, like as we have borne the image of the earthly Adam, so we shall bear the image of the heavenly Adam, which is the new man in a new world, where is no law, no sin, no remorse or sting of conscience, no death, but perfect joy, righteousness, grace, peace, salvation and glory.


Taken from Commentary On Galatians by Martin Luther, published in 1979 by Kregel Publications. Translation by Erasmus Middleton, edited by John Prince Fallowes. A reprint of the 1850 edition Published by the Harrison Trust, London.
Along with my own translation of what he was saying about Galatians….

Monday, August 2, 2010

the city's dying

Look around - pray for the scales to fall...
their city is dying
and everyone is lying
they dont realize that they should be crying
the city is dying
everyone is suckling the great whore greed
everyone is for me first
everyone "me first!"
they suckle till the shame drains away
and all thats left is a great fear of not getting more
they fear that the teat will grow dry
- that that is why they'll die
the city is dying now
and no one is crying
no one is trying
they all laugh
laugh in my face
at the thought of some race
I say "you better start runnin"
they laugh till their sides split
they bleed without realizing
their life spills onto the street
lays in little trash cans spread across the fine USA
their life
their life so bleached theres really nothing left
they visit the doctor daily to keep their face intact
where is your hope o generation of walking dead?
your skeleton children keep rythm with your hollow steps
the light isnt light but a growing cloud of darkness
your eyes dimm but you dont even know it
you smell
you really smell
but you wear it as if the deepest finest nard
the streets are covered with your litter
all of yal together tramping right on through
and leaving more behind
but you dont even seem to notice
you dont even seem to notice
you dont even seem to notice
your city's dying

MY

Gain Stains.
That was His name.
I hated myself.
Hated myself way before and even after He came.
But when He came I stopped bleeding.
And He started.
He started bleeding.
At first I was enamored.
I was enamored by my new white appearance
by the way I always had energy
always felt light and free
- when He was beside me.
And He was.
He didnt insist -
He just was.
He had a gentle way about Him -
a gentle smile
strong thin wrists - hands that spoke of a sword
and power.
Yes at first I was enamored.
Then I became sick.
Sick at my self.
When I laughed at some evil thought -
blood that used to seep from me -
squirted out of him.
His face was patient,
His eyes so sad -
Pain even crossed His face.
Sometimes terror - anguish.
And I couldnt stop.
I couldn't stop myself.
The evil thoughts,
the evil fantasies -
they wound through my head just as fast and furious as before
and he seeped and squirted and cried more and more every day.
I tried - I really tried to stop.
Once He opened His mouth to try to say something
but I screamed "JUST SHUT UP OK!"
This is why I began to hate myself.
No matter what I tried
I couldnt get the evil to leave me.
And I hated him there beside me bleeding
bleeding
bleeding.
I thought "When will He bleed dry?"
So now I run - and this too seems to make Him bleed.
He bleeds so hard and so fast I am screaming.
I just want Him to stop.
I just want to make Him go away.
But today, today I am too tired to go on.
Too tired to run.
I cant even raise my voice to silence Him as He begins to talk
He sits down beside me
His voice isnt even tired
just sad,
and this is what He says:
"Are you done now?"
And I realize I am.
I am.
I am done.
I close my eyes.
"There. Then I've taken it all." He says.
"Its finished."

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

How much is Jesus Worth?

How Much is Jesus Worth?
A sermon on Mark 14:1-25 by Coty Pinckney, Community Bible Church, Williamstown, MA 7/30/00
Let’s begin this morning with a multiple choice question:
If you could become any one of these four people, which would you choose?
(a) The richest, most successful businessman in the world;
(b) The most popular, most attractive movie star in the world;
(c) The president of the United States;
(d) An aids orphan in southern Africa.
Which do you choose?
Some of us might have a hard time choosing between a, b, and c; but is there anyone here this morning who would pick d?
Let me change the question: You now have the same four choices, except: if you choose a, b, or c, you do not know Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. If you’re the aids orphan, you do.
Which do you choose now?
Is the choice hard?
Do you see what I’m asking? How much is Jesus worth? Is knowing him worth more than all of Bill Gates’ fortune? Is knowing Him worth more than all the fame or power of a movie star or a president?
Today we consider the first 25 verses of Mark 14. The central theme of this section is: How much do we value Jesus? This passage is like a play: there are four main characters or groups of characters, all revolving around Jesus, all trying to determine what Jesus is worth. The characters are:
The chief priests and their associates
An unnamed woman
Judas
The other disciples
The passage divides itself into five scenes. We'll begin this morning by reading the entire passage, stopping only briefly after each scene to clarify or elaborate on a few points; after reading, we will compare and contrast some of these characters, drawing out lessons for ourselves. So while we read, think about the different characters. What is their purpose? What is their goal? How do they value Jesus? And ask yourself, How much do I value Jesus?
Recall the context of Mark 14: this is the last week of Jesus' life; from the very beginning of his ministry there has been conflict with the chief priests, but now it is all coming to a head. Jesus has cleared the moneychangers from the temple -- implicitly saying that those who are responsible for the temple -- the chief priests -- are not doing their job. And in Mark 13, He prophecies that temple will be destroyed completely, with not one stone left on another. As you would anticipate, these statements and actions don't tend to pacify the anger of the chief priests.
Scene 1: The Chief Priests and Associates
1 ¶ Now the Passover and Unleavened Bread was two days off; and the chief priests and the scribes were seeking how to seize Him by stealth, and kill Him; 2 for they were saying, "Not during the festival, lest there be a riot of the people." (Mark 14:1,2 NASB)
At this time, Passover was the Jewish festival most widely attended. We don’t know how many Jews who lived in surrounding areas and other countries flooded into Jerusalem, but at least a few hundred thousand, and possibly more than a million. Among these would be many who had heard Jesus speak, and many who had welcomed Him so joyously on Palm Sunday, just a few days previously. So the chief priests want to avoid arresting Him during the festival – not to preserve the sanctity of the feast but to minimize opposition to their move. They want to move on the sly, stealthily, and deal with Jesus privately, at night, where those who oppose them might not notice.
Scene 2: Jesus, the Disciples, and a Woman
3 And while He was in Bethany at the home of Simon the leper, and reclining at the table, there came a woman with an alabaster vial of very costly perfume of pure nard; and she broke the vial and poured it over His head. 4 But some were indignantly remarking to one another, "Why has this perfume been wasted? 5 "For this perfume might have been sold for over three hundred denarii, and the money given to the poor." And they were scolding her (or as the NIV reads, they "rebuked her harshly.") 6 But Jesus said, "Let her alone; why do you bother her? She has done a good deed to Me. 7 "For the poor you always have with you, and whenever you wish, you can do them good; but you do not always have Me. 8 "She has done what she could; she has anointed My body beforehand for the burial. 9 "And truly I say to you, wherever the gospel is preached in the whole world, that also which this woman has done shall be spoken of in memory of her." (Mark 14:3-9 NASB)
Picture the scene: Jesus and his disciples, possibly with other guests are eating at the home of Simon the Leper -- presumably a former leper whom Jesus had healed. This house is in Bethany, a couple of miles outside Jerusalem, where Lazarus and his sisters, Mary and Martha, live. As is the custom in this time and place, they are not sitting down to eat but reclining, lying with their feet away from the table, resting on their left arms, using their right hands to eat. The table is short, perhaps a foot high.
During the meal a woman enters the room carrying an incredibly expensive jar of perfume. She not only opens the jar, but breaks it, filling the room with its aroma. Then, rather than putting a small amount on Jesus, she pours the entire jar on him.
John tells us the identify of the woman: Mary, the sister of Lazarus. He also tells us that she does not stop at his head, but pours the perfume on his feet, and wipes those feet with her hair.
The plant that produces nard at this time was grown only in the Himalayas, and so the perfume is very expensive. If the stated value of three hundred denarii is accurate, this would be about $15,000 in the US today: 300 times one day's wage for unskilled labor. Nard was literally a gift for a king.
John tells us that Judas begins the rebuke of Mary for this "waste," and then the other disciples chime in. But Jesus accepts this offering, and silences her critics.
Scene 3: Judas and the Chief Priests
10 And Judas Iscariot, who was one of the twelve, went off to the chief priests, in order to betray Him to them. 11 And they were glad when they heard this, and promised to give him money. And he began seeking how to betray Him at an opportune time.
Chief priests are delighted: their problem is solved. Judas will help them find Jesus in a private place, so they can arrest Him where there are no crowds to start a riot.
Matthew tells us the amount of money they offered him: 30 pieces of silver, probably worth three to four denarii each. So the total value was about 100 denarii, or about $5000 for us. The chief priests pay Judas about one-third of the value of the nard Mary poured out on Jesus. According to the Old Testament, this is the value that the owner of an ox would have to pay the owner of a slave gored by the ox. So Judas sells Jesus for the price of a slave.
Scene 4: Jesus and the Disciples, Preparing for the Last Supper
12 ¶ And on the first day of Unleavened Bread, when the Passover lamb was being sacrificed, His disciples *said to Him, "Where do You want us to go and prepare for You to eat the Passover?" 13 And He *sent two of His disciples, and *said to them, "Go into the city, and a man will meet you carrying a pitcher of water; follow him; 14 and wherever he enters, say to the owner of the house, ‘The Teacher says, "Where is My guest room in which I may eat the Passover with My disciples?"‘ 15 "And he himself will show you a large upper room furnished and ready; and prepare for us there." 16 And the disciples went out, and came to the city, and found it just as He had told them; and they prepared the Passover. (Mark 14:12-16 NASB)
With all the crowds gathered in Jerusalem for Passover, finding a place to eat the Passover meal is a real problem. The meal should be eaten within the confines of the city proper, but room reservations are hard to find. Furthermore, the Jesus and the disciples need to move with some secrecy, since an arrest in a private home would be convenient for the chief priests.
Now, although they have been in town almost a week, the disciples have made no arrangements for a room. They have been so caught up in the events of the last week they haven’t even thought about the Passover meal. It is not a surprise that they would need a place within Jerusalem to eat the Passover. And Jesus had prophesied about His death, so they should have known this would be an especially important time. But they didn’t think.
Jesus, however, had graciously prepared details ahead of time. Presumably during His last visit to Jerusalem, Jesus made arrangements for a room to be available for this special meal. He then works miraculously, arranging that upon their arrival in the city they will see a man carrying a jar of water (an unusual event in these times). Like Samuel speaking to Saul, telling him who he will meet on the way home, Jesus gives further evidence to His disciples of His authority and foreknowledge at this critical time.
Scene 5: Jesus and His Disciples: The Last Supper
17 And when it was evening He *came with the twelve. 18 And as they were reclining at the table and eating, Jesus said, "Truly I say to you that one of you will betray Me—one who is eating with Me." 19 They began to be grieved and to say to Him one by one, "Surely not I?" 20 And He said to them, "It is one of the twelve, one who dips with Me in the bowl. 21 "For the Son of Man is to go, just as it is written of Him; but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been good for that man if he had not been born." 22 And while they were eating, He took some bread, and after a blessing He broke it; and gave it to them, and said, "Take it; this is My body." 23 And when He had taken a cup, and given thanks, He gave it to them; and they all drank from it. 24 And He said to them, "This is My blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many. 25 "Truly I say to you, I shall never again drink of the fruit of the vine until that day when I drink it new in the kingdom of God." (Mark 14:17-25 NASB)
Jesus and the disciples wait until they can move under the cover of darkness to the upper room. Here, while they are eating, Jesus breaks the news that one of the twelve disciples will betray Him. Twice before -- in Mark 9:31 and 10:33 -- Jesus has said that He will be betrayed (note that the NASB translates the word "delivered up" in those verses, but it is the same Greek word translated "betray" in 14:18). But the disciples had not understood much of what Jesus said in those verses, and clearly did not think that one of the twelve would be the betraying agent. They cannot believe this -- clearly the eleven have no suspicions of Judas -- and each one asks Jesus if he is the betrayer.
In this culture, to be betrayed by one "who is eating with me," who "dips with me in the bowl" was considered particularly treacherous. To eat with someone implied friendship, trust, and an obligation to help and protect them. So by speaking of their eating together, and saying that the betrayer is "one of the twelve," Jesus is emphasizing the enormity of the evil of what is happening.
Yet Jesus knows this has all been prophesied 1000 years previously, when David wrote Psalm 41:
Even my close friend, in whom I trusted, Who ate my bread, Has lifted up his heel against me (Psalm 41:9 NASB)
The Characters: Jesus
Now let's turn our attention to the characters. We will look first at Jesus, and then draw some comparisons and contrasts between the others.
Mark clearly presents Jesus as in control of the situation. Jesus is not surprised by anything that happens. The chief priests are trying to move secretly, on the sly, but Jesus knows their plans and arranges matters so that His arrest does not take place until He has finished His other work. Judas thinks he is fooling the other -- and he succeeds in fooling his fellow disciples. But Jesus knows of the betrayal, and lets Judas know that He knows. Jesus is well-prepared for this momentous last meal, making arrangements ahead of time. Jesus controls events at the house of Simon the Leper, interpreting what Mary has done so that the others might understand.
But most importantly, Jesus presents Himself as precious through the institution of the Lord's Supper. There are two aspects his preciousness to unpack here. First:
(1) The Lord's Supper signifies that Jesus pays the penalty for our sins
When offering the cup, Jesus says "this is my blood of the covenant which is poured out for many." In Mark, this is the clearest statement yet of Jesus' role in atoning for our sins. In 10:45 Jesus says he came to "give his life a ransom for many;" here He elaborates on that theme. Jesus here identifies himself with the Passover lamb, whose blood, we are told in the Old Testament, would have been poured out on the altar "to make atonement for your souls." Paul also emphasizes this parallel between Jesus and the Passover lamb, stating "Christ our Passover also has been sacrificed" (1 Corinthians 5:7).
What does this mean? As the author of the book of Hebrews writes, "without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness of sins." God is a just God; He is the moral authority in the universe. He makes sure that every wrong is paid for, exactly as it deserves. And each of us sins in many ways. Most fundamentally, each of us fails to praise God as we should; instead, we dishonor Him by our actions, our inaction, our thoughts, and our words. But Jesus, the perfect, unblemished lamb, offers His life to pay the penalty for all our sins, enabling us to enter God's presence spotless and pure. This is what we act out and celebrate when we partake of the Lord's Supper. This is how precious Jesus is.
But there's even more!
(2) The Lord's Supper signifies that Jesus lives within you
Given that Jesus pays the penalty for all our sins, we should respond by living out lives that honor and glorify him. But how can we do that, since we are so prone to selfishness, self-centeredness, and other forms of evil?
Jesus says the cup is His "blood of the covenant." In 1 Corinthians, Paul tells us that Jesus said the cup is the "blood of the new covenant." A covenant is an agreement, a promise -- in this case between God and His people, telling them how they can become right with Him, and how they can fulfill their purpose by glorifying God. The idea of a new covenant goes back to Jeremiah 31:33:
"But this is the covenant which I will make with the house of Israel after those days," declares the LORD, "I will put My law within them, and on their heart I will write it; and I will be their God, and they shall be My people.
Or, as Paul puts it in Colossians: "Christ in You, the Hope of glory." God says His law will not be something external, rules that His people will have to live up to. No. His law will be on their heart, within them, and they will have true intimacy with Himself.
So Jesus gives us this wonderful picture: We are to eat His flesh, and drink His blood; we are to have His life within us, always. Remember, God had commanded the Israelites not to drink any blood of any kind, and to drain all the blood from an animal prior to cooking its meat. God's explanation of this command is found in Leviticus 17:11:
‘For the life of the flesh is in the blood, and I have given it to you on the altar to make atonement for your souls; for it is the blood by reason of the life that makes atonement.’
God tells the Israelites to eat no blood, for the life is in the blood, and that serves to make atonement for their souls. So when Jesus tells us to drink His blood, He tells us to have His life within us. Christ in us, the hope of glory. So by the power of the living Christ within us, we not only can stand before God with our sins paid for; we also are transformed eventually into His likeness, as He lives out His life in us.
So we are to drink up Jesus' life, consume Him, for, as Jesus says in John 6:55, "My flesh is true food, and My blood is true drink." This is the lesson for us: Feed on Him, devour Him, get all our sustenance from Him, value Him above all else, desire Him more than anything, glorify Him with our money, our time, all that we are. Jesus is the most precious of all.
Reactions to Jesus by the Other Characters
How do the other characters react to this most precious One? The woman, Mary, is central here. All others are in contrast to her.
Mary vs the Chief Priests
The chief priests pay money to destroy Jesus; Mary gives much more money to anoint Jesus for burial.
Mary vs the Disciples
The disciples have had much more instruction from Jesus than Mary ever had. Jesus had prophesied about His death in their presence at least three times; indeed, when they returned toward Jerusalem, they are concerned because the authorities have tried to stone Jesus. Thomas even says, "Let us also go, that we might die with Him." Nevertheless, they act completely unprepared for His death. They do not act as if they expect anything to happen; they don't even make any preparations for their last Passover meal together.
On the other hand, Mary surely does not understand all that is happening, but knows that she will not have Jesus with her much longer. Despite not having heard Jesus' prophecies about His death, she knows that He will die, and knows that Jesus is more precious than anything else imaginable. So she gives up what is most valuable to her -- this jar of nard, perhaps a family heirloom -- to prepare His body for burial. She demeans herself even to the point of rubbing His feet with her hair, knowing that the most important thing of all is devotion to Jesus.
Mary vs Judas
Judas is one of these disciples, one of the intimate circle that has been loved by Jesus, taught by Him. Judas has traveled with Jesus for three years, and has heard those prophecies about His death. Judas has even been empowered by Jesus to perform miracles when He sent the disciples out two by two. But now, Judas sells the most precious person in the world for the price of a slave. For $5000, Judas gave up the source of all true life.
Mary has had much less contact with Jesus, but values Him above all else. She gives up three times what Judas received for betraying Him, in order to honor Him and acknowledge Him as precious.
But there's another contrast between Judas and Mary. Look again at verse 21, where Jesus says:
"For the Son of Man is to go, just as it is written of Him; but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed! It would have been good for that man if he had not been born."
This verse proclaims both God's sovereignty and man's accountability. God is sovereign; He foretold Judas' betrayal 1000 years previously. And He arranged events so that all would take place according to His good, perfect, and wise plan. God is in control.
Yet Judas chooses to betray Jesus, and is responsible for that choice; Jesus says, "Woe to that man!" For what he does, Judas name for all time with be the name of a traitor.
What is the contrast with Mary? She too was part of God's plan, acting out the preciousness of Jesus for all the world to see. She too made a choice. Her name too will live for all time, "that also which this woman has done shall be spoken of in memory of her."
So why are these scenes together? Why does Mark put the story of Mary's anointing of Jesus right next to the story of the Last Supper?
Mary lives out the picture of the Lord's Supper. Mary is feeding on Jesus, showing that she values Him above all else -- and this is what Jesus pictures for us in the Lord's Supper.
John Piper puts it this way:
When you truly partake of the cup and the table of the Lord, you are being nourished and satisfied by the Lord, and loving the Lord, and delighting in the Lord, and trusting the Lord and fellowshipping with the Lord. That's what it means to share in the blood and body of Christ -- to sit with Jesus at the banquet of the benefits of his death.
Conclusion
Are you sold out to God? Or are you just sold out? Mary was sold out to God. Judas was sold out. Just as Esau sold his inheritance for lentil stew, Judas sold His soul for $5000.
That seems incredible to us — but what’s your price? Do you have a price?
Physical punishment for yourself?
Physical punishment for your family?
While many of our brothers and sisters around the world and in the history of the church have to ask that question, for us the prospect of physical punishment or death for proclaiming the preciousness of Jesus seems abstract, unreal. So ask yourself this question: Is your price a steady job and a nice income and a nice house and a nice car and college for the kids?
Good things, all: But are you devoting yourself to these goals more than you are devoting yourself to following Jesus? Is the pursuit of these things, is your plan to achieve all these things, standing in the way of your making a radical, life-changing commitment to God? Standing in the way of your expressing you wholehearted devotion to Jesus, like Mary?
Instead, are you more like Simon's dinner guests: calculating, "Oh, that’s too much to give to Jesus! We’ll give him our worship on Sunday, and a tenth of our income (maybe); that should be enough. But, Hey! What I do with the rest of my money and the rest of my time, that’s up to me."
Are you sold out to Jesus and the gospel? Or are you only playing at church?
You don’t owe Jesus only a tenth of your income. You don’t owe him only your worship on Sunday. You owe him everything! You owe Him your entire life!
But this is not some onerous debt you have to repay, which hurts each time you make a payment! For when you yield to him, when you give up these pseudo-successes and pseudo-pleasures the world offers, when instead you feed on Him, and drink Him up – you find the real love, joy, and peace the world so much longs for. You get to know the most precious, the most beautiful, the most loving person in the world. And as you get to know Him, and as you see Him and learn more and more of Him, as you drink Him up, you become like Him.
So do that! Drink him up! Feed on him!
Taste and see the goodness of the Lord – and enter in to the joy of His presence.
So, yes, I would rather be a poor aids orphan in a developing country – and know Jesus - than the richest man in the world, and not know Him. I know that that’s the right choice. I don’t always act consistently with that knowledge, but I know it’s right.
What about you? Is Jesus more precious to you than anything in this world?

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